Paris

Paris was where i learned how to think for myself, how to imagine, how to grow, and how to be who i am.

Reality

Write about the rain and its infinite capabilities

Write about life and the stages of growth

Write about the sun and its loving wisdom

Write about death and its comforting embrace

Write about imagination and its limitless capabilites

Who am i?

I'm a boy for starts, that's a good place to start because gender has plenty of stereotypes you can use to summarize my existence.

Next i can tell you I'm afraid of spiders and i get sick around blood and the insides of bodies. Now you can call me wimp.

So here you have that I'm a boy and a wimp, so I'm probably not one of those manly jocks. Well your right i actually hate most sports, though i do find pool and ping pong fun!

Your image so far is probably something like a shrimpy, wimpy boy who doesn't like to be active. Well I'm actually like 6'2'' so that takes out the shrimpy factor, though i am pretty skinny.

I'm kinda a pessimist though i don't actually like to be one, i can be pretty optimistic in my own mind.

I'm really quite when i sit in class without anyone i know, but when people start talking to me i can get pretty energetic. I feel that's the case with a lot of people though and its not that unique.

One of my major faults would be that i think everyone hates me, it doesn't matter who it could be my best friend or it could be some stranger on the street. I don't like that about me, i do not have depression and do not want to develop it, so i have developed a narcissistic coping mechanism. I like to joke about how amazing i am, i do this because when people agree i feel as though I'm not a complete social failure.

In truth though i really like everyone and respect everyone for their own opinions, personalities, and choices. I wish i could be more comfortable with myself so that i can show other people who suffer from the same self degradation i suffer from that people do like them and they are loved.

Last night i realized that i am not very good at making friends or conversation when i don't know the people very well, this is because i am actually pretty self conscious (if you couldn't tell from previous statements). When i brought this up to some close friends they said they have a hard time believing i have insecurities, and that's probably because i recognize what i have problems with and i fight against them and in doing so maybe overcompensate for my lack of confidence by being cocky and acting like i don't give a crap what everyone else thinks.

Now on the positive side, i like to think about things and because of that i have a pretty open mindedness about life. I don't like to fall into stereotypes because i believe they are a social trap, but i can accept other peoples doing so because it is an easier way to live your life. I believe that everyone has amazing potential and if they all acted more ambitious the world would achieve amazing things, imagine a world full of people as progressive as Einstein or as revolutionary as Ghandi. The world would be amazing. 

I hate depression, and i hate even more when its used as an excuse. EVERYONE has problems, if depression is yours then its your duty to overcome that. Realize that your greatest weakness is in feeling hopeless and push on anyways, yes i know its hard but so is dealing with cancer, addictions, and other disabilities. Two of my closest friends have severe medical depression, they are two of my biggest role models because of how they have conquered it. They still have quirks or effects of depression but they never give in, NEVER. Its a constant battle that will never end, but its tameable, it takes 10,000 hours to master something and if you spend everyday of your life fighting against depression you will become its master and you will control it instead of it controlling you. Oh and those people who say they have depression when all they want is attention, you could be diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and institutionalized, but seriously why would you ever want to fake depression, it sucks.

The methods i described to conquer depression are really how you should just deal with everything, it's how i try to fight my problems. Anyway more about who i am: I have dirty blonde hair, very pale white skin (I've tried to tan... doesn't work), blue eyes, and my favorite color is green! I look good in browns and blues and prefer form fitting clothes to loose baggy clothes, but i hate tight skinny clothes.

I love reading too, Brandon Sanderson is my favorite writer ever... he's like the god of fantasy writing. My favorite books are mistborn, way of kings, the wheel of time, lord of the rings, enders game, enders shadow, ender in exile, elantris, war breaker, the emperors soul, and the golden compass.

I hate modern poetry, its not as true and creative as those of the past. Emily Dickinson, Robert Frost, Lewis Carol, Shakespeare, etc. all these are examples of the great writers of poetry. They don't write complaints about society and human ineptitude, they don't write about how they have gone through so much pain and suffering and are better because of it... and they want the world to recognize their acheivement. They write about life, the sun, imagination, rain, and death: They write about reality.

I am Avery and i want to hear a poem about the simple truth, i want to hear a poem about the world.

I most likely probably wont become a serial killer....

Life is difficult, you shouldn't put too much pressure on someone you know cant handle it. 

They just might become serial killers.

Running time

My mind is a log and its running out of data