Paris

Paris was where i learned how to think for myself, how to imagine, how to grow, and how to be who i am.

Reality

Write about the rain and its infinite capabilities

Write about life and the stages of growth

Write about the sun and its loving wisdom

Write about death and its comforting embrace

Write about imagination and its limitless capabilites

Who am i?

I'm a boy for starts, that's a good place to start because gender has plenty of stereotypes you can use to summarize my existence.

Next i can tell you I'm afraid of spiders and i get sick around blood and the insides of bodies. Now you can call me wimp.

So here you have that I'm a boy and a wimp, so I'm probably not one of those manly jocks. Well your right i actually hate most sports, though i do find pool and ping pong fun!

Your image so far is probably something like a shrimpy, wimpy boy who doesn't like to be active. Well I'm actually like 6'2'' so that takes out the shrimpy factor, though i am pretty skinny.

I'm kinda a pessimist though i don't actually like to be one, i can be pretty optimistic in my own mind.

I'm really quite when i sit in class without anyone i know, but when people start talking to me i can get pretty energetic. I feel that's the case with a lot of people though and its not that unique.

One of my major faults would be that i think everyone hates me, it doesn't matter who it could be my best friend or it could be some stranger on the street. I don't like that about me, i do not have depression and do not want to develop it, so i have developed a narcissistic coping mechanism. I like to joke about how amazing i am, i do this because when people agree i feel as though I'm not a complete social failure.

In truth though i really like everyone and respect everyone for their own opinions, personalities, and choices. I wish i could be more comfortable with myself so that i can show other people who suffer from the same self degradation i suffer from that people do like them and they are loved.

Last night i realized that i am not very good at making friends or conversation when i don't know the people very well, this is because i am actually pretty self conscious (if you couldn't tell from previous statements). When i brought this up to some close friends they said they have a hard time believing i have insecurities, and that's probably because i recognize what i have problems with and i fight against them and in doing so maybe overcompensate for my lack of confidence by being cocky and acting like i don't give a crap what everyone else thinks.

Now on the positive side, i like to think about things and because of that i have a pretty open mindedness about life. I don't like to fall into stereotypes because i believe they are a social trap, but i can accept other peoples doing so because it is an easier way to live your life. I believe that everyone has amazing potential and if they all acted more ambitious the world would achieve amazing things, imagine a world full of people as progressive as Einstein or as revolutionary as Ghandi. The world would be amazing. 

I hate depression, and i hate even more when its used as an excuse. EVERYONE has problems, if depression is yours then its your duty to overcome that. Realize that your greatest weakness is in feeling hopeless and push on anyways, yes i know its hard but so is dealing with cancer, addictions, and other disabilities. Two of my closest friends have severe medical depression, they are two of my biggest role models because of how they have conquered it. They still have quirks or effects of depression but they never give in, NEVER. Its a constant battle that will never end, but its tameable, it takes 10,000 hours to master something and if you spend everyday of your life fighting against depression you will become its master and you will control it instead of it controlling you. Oh and those people who say they have depression when all they want is attention, you could be diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and institutionalized, but seriously why would you ever want to fake depression, it sucks.

The methods i described to conquer depression are really how you should just deal with everything, it's how i try to fight my problems. Anyway more about who i am: I have dirty blonde hair, very pale white skin (I've tried to tan... doesn't work), blue eyes, and my favorite color is green! I look good in browns and blues and prefer form fitting clothes to loose baggy clothes, but i hate tight skinny clothes.

I love reading too, Brandon Sanderson is my favorite writer ever... he's like the god of fantasy writing. My favorite books are mistborn, way of kings, the wheel of time, lord of the rings, enders game, enders shadow, ender in exile, elantris, war breaker, the emperors soul, and the golden compass.

I hate modern poetry, its not as true and creative as those of the past. Emily Dickinson, Robert Frost, Lewis Carol, Shakespeare, etc. all these are examples of the great writers of poetry. They don't write complaints about society and human ineptitude, they don't write about how they have gone through so much pain and suffering and are better because of it... and they want the world to recognize their acheivement. They write about life, the sun, imagination, rain, and death: They write about reality.

I am Avery and i want to hear a poem about the simple truth, i want to hear a poem about the world.

I most likely probably wont become a serial killer....

Life is difficult, you shouldn't put too much pressure on someone you know cant handle it. 

They just might become serial killers.

Running time

My mind is a log and its running out of data

Setting

Early in the morning when the first rays of sun penetrate the tips of the mountain tops rays shine down into a forest of white birch tree's, straight into a clearing of soft green grass and lightly colored flowers. With the smell of fruit rising from the many berry bushes speckling the forest floor, the birds begin the daily chorus of daytime activity. The flowers begin to open up their buds, shaking away the morning dew, to drink from the glinting rays of sunlight escaping through the holes in the cloudy sky. The sounds of cars driving through the many street-ed suburban wonderland laying just off the mountain side drift up and join the sounds of mingling wildlife. Rocks sitting on a cliff grow bored and chase the sounds of trickling water down a hill leading to the city, leading the river's inhabitants in a frantic chase down the river bed. The silvery scales create a brilliant flash in the morning light, illuminating the water above. Lightly grayed clouds mingle with the fluffy pillows in the sky, and drip light rain on the canopy of pale green leaves. The light shoots through the saturated sky and is set free into a burst of color stretching across the skyline revealing the trail to a hidden treasure among a forest of white birch tree's. Right into a clearing of soft green grass and lightly colored flowers, smelling of fruit from the berry bushes speckling the forest floor and alive with the chorus of daytime activity's.

i feel

I feel you through the interference.

All those colors and subtle rain showers, those things that block me from you.

I feel you through it all because i know they are your feelings. Those things that make you want to break down, those things that make you hard, those things that make you unreachable. I feel what you want me to feel and then i feel deeper. I reach for what i know is who you are, and when i find it i will embrace it.

You feel the bricks and the tide, the flowers and the glass, you feel as though everything is wrong and everything that is wrong is what makes you: you.

Take shelter, its okay to feel helpless and lost. Its okay as long as you feel it on solid ground, as long as you feel it where you wont fall. The fall is long, and the fall is hard. You wont fall if you hold on, so hold on to my hand. I will try to be strong so we can stay where the sky is blue and the grass is green.

Hold on, and if i am too weak we will fall. Fall together, and the climb back up is always easier with some you trust to do it with you.

Newspaper Art

Thraavup The Owl

The support.

The background. The stage. The scenery. The floor. The wall. The shoes. The scent. The grass. The tree. The cane. The sky.

Wherever you are, whatever you need. Whenever you think, Whatever it is.

Forever pulling the strings, Forever not being seen.

The puppeteer, the jester, but not the king. The path but not the guide, the spot but not the trap.

Thraavup the owl, the clandestine support to the exhibited event. Making things move but never touching, composing the coup through masked words, Freeing the rebel through no action.

I am the owl, i control everything but take no credit. I will always be on top though i may be seen on the bottom. Out-Think, Out-Maneuver. A player in the game of limitless opportunity and option.

Support doesn't meant weak, it means smart.

When do people gain their humanity?

Okay here we go... what separates us from animals would be our state of life and mind. Marlow's  hierarchy of needs explains that we aim to accomplish different levels of accomplishments. We start off on the first two levels which are our basic needs of sustaining life through food, water, shelter, security, etc. On that level we are equal with animals. After that we branch out into the third section: love and belonging, or having close friends, family and sexual intimacy (boyfriend/girlfriend). Most people find success here and those who don't either fade away or skip that level to find it later. Others who do succeed here will not continue on, this is what our society glorifies. We are built around relationships and pleasing ourselves through these relationships. We think this is all there is too life and stop, most people don't go on because they want to "fit in". Those who do go on though find happiness in themselves, not in others, meaning we work to better ourselves and don't care if others disagree with it because we are comfortable in who we are. These people usually seek to help anyone who is trying to reach this level, and they respect others even if they are not as far along than themselves. People usually spend most of their lives in this level (or below it), but if you master it, you can then reach out to discover the world and learn and love everything about it: this is self actualization. When you don't have to worry about your own insecurities, or others, and you can focus on the world around you. That is when you have figured yourself out perfectly. To answer this question: humanity is achieved once we develop relationships, but humanity can then be developed and progressed through further introspection and discovery on who we are and how we want to live.

Going For A Swim

don't fall in, don't fall in, don't fall in...

We're all young minds, with potential.

We are painting the roses red

The Piano is not on fire

Our underworld isn't filled with fear

Don't worry about Bowser or DK

Through the ages we have failed

We've got smiles on our faces

You have brains in your head

Today was good, Today was fun.

An elephants true one hundred percent

So be sure when you step

If you never did, you should

Only you can control your future

But sometimes progress progresses too fast

You are brighter than the stars

You are a butterfly held captive

It is not about your scars

Do you play lonely games too?  

Change

In a field of pink flowers. 

 Waiting away the hours. 

Listening to someones else's.

Story of independence.

The fight against slavery.

The fight against kings, and rulers, and god.

I listened to these story's

while working,

In a field of red flowers.

The Performer

Dance for your audience, they expect it.

 Mesmerize them with your flying colors, spinning bodies, and musical sounds.

 But make them eat out of your palm because you are in control, 

and they will watch while you entrance and guide their minds along. 

Keeping control can be difficult but practice help, and when you finish your grand finale

 they will be yours. Society is full of lies and innuendos 

which we all seek to understand, 

but all you really need to know

 is how to keep control.

Put on the costume and the makeup, let loose your magic tricks.

Your the star, not the audience.

And when you've finished all your plans pass the talent along,

onto the next bright and brilliant,

Performer.

Never Burn Out The Madness

What the hammer? What the chain?

In what furnace was thy brain?

What the anvil? What dread grasp

Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

-THE TYGER By William Blake

I have a friend who follows me around.
No one can see him, no one can touch him.
Not even me.

He isn't imaginary, he isn't fake.
He doesn't exist just inside my brain.
He is as real as you and me.

He's just a bear, nothing too fancy.
my friend, my pet, from another life.
So he just waits for me to die.

Thank You Note...

This note is for all those who have helped me on my path...

This note is for anyone who has liked my style...

This note is for anyone who has looked at me and thought "he looks nice"...

This note is for anyone who has stolen my words...

This note is for the crows for waking me up...

This note is for the tree's that helped me grow tall...

This note is for the leaves that lightened my fall...

This note is for the garden that light up my life...

This note is for the cars that took me home...

This note is for the teacher that helped me look up...

This note is for the angel that stopped me from dying...

This note is for the cat that chased away dogs...

This note is for the swamp that held my log...

This note is for the stars that light up my night...

This note is for whoever looked at me and thought,

  

They are worth more than just a Thank You 

Note...

Blast at the Boom

Just take your time to listen to the movements of the world. This is where you will find your inspiration.

When i look at things that are beautiful i think of all i miss out on daily. I could be exploring these places and learning new things about this planet we call home, but i am stuck here in my house with all of the troubles caused by myself and those around me. Sometimes, i wish i could be a bird and get away from it all.

Life loves to challenge you now and again. At these times find a way to distract yourself. I know that sounds really simple and simple things never work out the way you want, but if you try then try to do something blissful. Something that makes you so happy you forget about everything else, that's not simple is it?

That friend who cares about you. That friend is golden.

Whirlpool

Doesn't matter what the future brings, I'm gunna live a crazy dream.
-Mindy Gledhill

When you have dream, don't you wish that all the amazing things you see were real?

I've been wishing i could sit in a chair with the daisy's and trees bursting to life all around me. I wish i could sit there with you and your sweet spirit taking in the aroma of life.

Try to understand your imaginations story's

Creativity

 

When your imagination paints a story of children laughing and the sun shining, then we can skip the troubles and lean directly towards what is rightly ours.

Your dreams tell you your ambitions. What does it matter everyone's watching? We can explore those ambitions and create new colors.

Let your mind float away in a hot air balloon, so you can escape reality and change everything around you.

Are You A Genius?

What makes you what you are?

Is it you who makes you, you?

Or is it those around you who create you?

In the end aren't you already you?                                                   Why would you be anything but you? 

Don't let others control you because in the end they will always let you down.

Let your own imagine shine and you will discover so much more.

You will be the genius you were created to be.

IMAGINATION, let it be your guide. 

Next you post don't think about what your writing, and just let it all come out.

Then you will find your true creativity and you will be you.

Because a flower is only a flower when it stands on its own and is guided by the bee's it attracts itself. You can be pulled in every direction by those who would control you, but why should you listen to them. Everyone goes by in their own special way and we are all guided by ourselves. Those who we love and who love us are here for us, but they are also here for themselves. Don't be selfish be selfless. Find yourself and then you can find everyone else, because when you find yourself you learn what you still need to learn in order to grow. When you grow you find out the truth, and the truth is never what you expect. Rip down your expectations because they will only hold you back. You can only be the light for others when you become the light for yourself.

Wonderland

What do you think during the ungodly hours of the morning? When you are walking to the bathroom, sitting for what seems like hours just staring at the ceiling and noticing the beautiful colors that envelop the night sky of your mind. This world is majestic and mysterious, Two words not often used in the description of the atoms speeding around us. 

The fireflies that love so much to light up the gorgeous skies, block out the hidden lights of the fighting giants in the sky. 

They hide the lost knowledge of unsung poems.

Today,

 i will walk down the hallways of my giant cathedral of life and paint the walls with evergreen treetops, then give to another an empty canvas, and encourage them to paint their live. 

Today i will lean towards the unwanted and reach down to the sprouts growing from the silky soils of their soul.

 We will learn to progress together and share our thoughts with those who also cannot see the red dawn of the super powered generators of society. 

Together we will quite down the motor and silence the screams, and when you begin to wither you will feel the accomplishment of reaching up towards the fireflies, moving them aside, and writing your name on the canvas of the skies. 

Never back down and always push on to the next day.

Fears noises

Things you never want to hear:

1. A tapping noise on the other side of the shower curtain before you (or after) you get in.

2. Creaking staircases (especially when you're home alone)

3. A knock at your window... when your room is on the second floor.

4. A bloodcurdling scream (especially when its near you)

5. The sound a car makes when it crashes through your house.

6. The sound a car makes when it crashes.

7. "Excuse me ladies and gentlemen but would you calmly find your nearest exit as fast as possible".

8. "Excuse me ladies and gentlemen but would you calmly find your way to the nearest lifeboat". 

9. "Excuse me ladies and gentlemen but would you kindle kneel down and put your hands behind your heads, I have a gun".

10. gunshots... in your neighborhood.

11. Rebecca Black at 7 in the morning... on a Saturday.

12. Thunder when your camping

13. That noise your radio makes when they test the alert system (or when the alert is real)

14. Screamo music at 7 in the morning... Doesn't matter what day it is.

15. Korn

16. Your engine setting on fire.

17. Your mom yelling your name... your full name.

18. Your dad yelling at you...

19. "I watch you sleep at night" :)

20. Shattering glass.

21. Nails against a chalkboard.

22. whispering in your ear, when your alone.

23. Your alarm in the morning.

24. Your girlfriends ringtone, when your at your other girlfriends house.

25. Your girlfriends voice, when you kissing your other girlfriend...

26. Crunching snow, when your alone in a snowy forest.

27. Screeching tires.

28. Hissing in your room at night.

29. Little kids singing London bridge is falling down, in a minor key.

30. Clinking chains.

True Fear

"There are three things that all wise men fear: the sea in a storm, a night with no moon, and the anger of a gentle man." -Patrick Rothfuss, A Wise Mans Fear

I sit and i picture each of those as a painting in my mind.

A sea in a storm, why is that a wise mans fear? It means we all fear to be lost in a world full of meaningless words and wasted paper, and then to be torn by the shallowest depths of the mind.

A night with no moon? Loneliness of the blackest kind, sitting on a lifeless hilltop staring at undeveloped canvas with no way to light it up. No way to reveal its dimensionless beauty.

Why the anger of a gentle man? It speaks of disappointment and failure, why would you push his patience? The wrath of one trying to teach to a drunken society, trying to teach the diamond wall of humanity.

When you fight progress and knowledge always remember to fear the wrath of a gentle man.

For diamond doesn't just break, it shatters, and the shards can pierce your soul.

Me

My favorite color is Blue on Mondays and Red on a full moon.

I like to Wonder at the World and Yell on top of the Mountain Peaks.

I like the Seas in the Forests and the Murals on the Building Sides.

The Dugong is my favorite animal but i like Glow Worms.

Sometimes you Make me Angry but i will Always Grow beyond those times.

This is me trying to be Creative but i don't know if it Works.

I am part Red and Part Blue, I want Control and i want Knowledge too.

Rants by Thraavup

Today i ranted about society and its lunatic and unproductive obsessions. 

On the car ride home from school i wondered about the enigma which is sports... When i think of sports i think of a fun past time in which those who enjoy it can spend quality time with one another enjoying something they love. But then i see this...

and this...

Oh and don't forget this lovely clip!

10 people injured and 50 arrested.... really people? Since when did sports become as violent as social movements! I just don't get the fanaticism, i mean i enjoy playing sports (some at least) but i get bored watching them, and  i will by no means go out and light a fire downtown because my favorite basketball team won the NBA championship.

Anyway society's first problem is that they are too obsessed with sports. My second problem with society  is its focus on trivial and unproductive things. I looked up google's top searched topics... it started with a wonderful #1 Whitney Houston!

Don't get me wrong, i respect Whitney for her talent and abilities (though i don't love her music) and i would encourage her death to be known, but really #1 most researched topic on google! Not that big of a deal Whitney, sorry...

Now number 2 really got my respect for society going! Gangnam style! Which i had to look up how to spell... really, that is such a terrible song, its excitement lasted a whole of 4 minutes (the length of the song). After which i never cared to hear it again.

Finally at 3rd we have Hurricane Sandy (beaten by a Pervy Korean), so it takes about 110 deaths and more then $50 billion dollars in damage for us to look up something relating to current events and our world.

Next we got the Ipad 3 and Diable 3, Gotta love our electrons for which we can spend hours gaming and listening to Gangnam style!

Down from that we get Kate Middleton (i guess that related to world topics(rolls eyes)), The olympics (we must prove our omnipotence over other countries by playing sports), and then Amanda todd... which i will say is something good to be aware off... at least we can realize people do need help.

Finally we have Michael Clarke Duncan (some actor) and BBB12... Which wikipedia tells me is some Brazilian television show... oh yes so important to know world, so very important. 

Now i know in the end these things aren't solid proof, people can get information from places other than Google and sports riots have never hurt as many people as Social Movements (as a whole), but it is true that these things fill the lives of many people, the fill places where greatness could shine through if they weren't so ignorant. Now how about we spend five minutes every day not thinking about trivial things? How about we spend five minutes doing something to further our knowledge and talents, and if those five minutes start to seem like not enough time to improve yourself. Then by all means take more time! Only you can hold back yourself, because only you can control yourself. A quote well worn but true all the same.

Things that bring me so much "joy"

-When i am taught a subject we both understand...
-When you must disagree, just to disagree with me...
-Eating with your mouth open...
-Eating loudly...
-When i wear clothes that i realize don't match after its impossible to change...
-When i obsess over what to wear...
-Watching birds fly...
-Not being able to fly...
-Being held down...
-being tickled...
-People who cant take hints...
-People who are really "deep"...
-Immature people...
-Immature people who hate "immature" people...
-Immaturity...
-"sarcasm"...
-"quotes"...
-My Boss...
-People who make fun of gamers and nerds...
-People who are "scared", "intimidated", or "weirded out" by me...
-math...
-Forcing my genius to come out...
-Not being seen as the intellect i am...
-Wishing i was a senior to be with more mature friends only to realize i still have to wait till College... hopefully...
-Lists too long...
-Beginnings...

The "slow down" moments

Those moments in life when you look around and the world slows down.

Those moments are real perfection...

Go on a drive to somewhere breath taking, travel across the world in search of only the most beautiful. In those places you can find that moment.

The world was meant to be explored not squandered with human problems, we are living on the only planet able to have this level of beauty in our solar system so why not see everything you can?

Bing knows what they are doing eveyday they show you a picture of somwere amazing and breathtaking, but if pictures were all we could get of these places life would be dull indeed.

My background is an example of these places... look and it and imagine being there... and now come back to your dull, mundane life.

Get out and explore, these places may be right outside your door.

The Tired, Overasked Question... What Is Love?

Really? Were going to ask this again?

How many times does this need to be asked before the answer is satisfyed?

What is love? Its what you develop...

Its what you nurture...

Its the dang reason your still alive!

Desocialization... the process of being removed from society and not receiving any type of human or animal contact.

All victims of this "disorder" have died at an early age. Nothing can stop that.
 You want to know what love is? Love is what keeps you alive through you childhood and early adulthood, love is the how much you enjoy the people you spend time with.

Love isnt a need to always be with them and a despairing lose when they are not near you.

Love isnt the need to end your own life because you cannot be with them.

Love isnt that your life is incomplete when they are gone and you are "alone".

Love is to be able to look at them and care for them, but know that they have their life and you have yours. All you can hope for is that their life is full of learning and growth just as you wish your life is.



Who cares about robots anyway?

Robots vs. Humans:
definiton of Robot: A machine that looks like a human and does mechanical, routine jobs.
A robot is a machine.. which does mechanical, routine jobs...

definiton of Machine: An apparatus consisting of interrelated parts with seperate functions, used in the preformance of some kind of work.
A robot is a machine... A machine is an apparatus...

definition of Apparatus: Any system or systematic organization activities, functions, processess, etc., directed toward a specific goal.
An apparatus is a system of funtions directed towards a specific goal... our bodies must then be an apparatus...

Worked backward: Our bodies are an apparatus... A machine is an apparatus... A robot is a machine...

Now you decide what keeps you from being a robot.

Introduction to Muchness

Welcome to the beginning of Muchness.

In this blog i will post Much and from the Much i post, i hope will come some fashion of inspiration. I like to fancy myself a intellectual thinker, though there are those who will visit my blog and know who i am and then disagree, and i hope that those who visit my blog, and don't know who I am, will be able to find their own sort of intellectual thought. Much is to come, and Much will be said, Much will be thought, and Much will be found. Now Much luck to those who think about Much.